silent voices

Even I knew that she wasn't mine and never be mine but I still hope that she happy.
Was it wrong just to say hello?
She has already knew my feeling for her. That's d hardest thing to say to her.
Why can I just forget her and move on?
When everything has calm why she have to came to my life again.
I know that she doing it unintentionally but still it open d memory that me n her have before.
She not a special just came in d right time. When I need someone that understand me she came.
I love her but I love someone else much than her, but I still need her.
What a confusing situation. I want her but she never be mine, but I also can let her go.
I ever let her go but d regret that I feel was so torchering. I want her so much, not because she beautiful but she cheeer me up.
I must let her go, I will let her go but when?
I have love her much. damn! What should I do then?
Can't just we pretend that we are one?
I LOVE U but I CAN'T HAVE U

bizzare day

this week was a bizzare day
lucu banget plus khayal
disaat q lagi mencoba untuk setia ternyata susah bgt. sampai akhirnya ya q selingkuh dgn org yg plg ga mgkn dipirkan ma seorg pun. aneh juga pas awalnya q cuma pengen mesum2an tp ga tw napa bisa kebawa perasaan juga. susah ya emang. merasa salah ma nia pasti tp mw gmn lg?
pengen aja jd normal dgn satu perempuan saja tp ga tw kenapa susah aja!
Ada berita eva sudah jadian ma urdik it's fine but then Nao jd aneh, urdik malah ngelak trz! dh gtu kenapa q yg jd sasaran?
I am angry not because eva hook up with urdik or nao becaming so different but because "one" girl.
last night suppose to be good night. watching movie together but the realisasion is I've been left all alone.
that was my fault and also my biggest mystake but I enjoy it.
I still miss reny.
d only women that knows mw better than I.
what a bizzare day